It’s the Summer holidays and so I have taken the time to catch up with friends old and new. We inevitably draw comparisons between the selves we were last time we met and how our lives compare to one another now.
There was probably a point when our lives seemed to be of equal measure and somehow along with way I can’t help feeling like I have succeeded in some areas while my friends seem to have surpassed me in so many others. I have begun to realise it all revolves around the one word- commitment.
synonyms: dedication, devotion, allegiance, loyalty, faithfulness, fidelity, bond, adherence, attentiveness.
synonyms: responsibility, obligation, duty, tie, charge, liability, burden, pressure
Many of my friends ooze with the excitement of settling down and starting a family. Committing to the life they once fought off. A life-long career. They see commitment as a joy and more often than not a safety net in an ever changing world. They are to my mind definition 1.
Other of my friends (myself included) hang on to the days where a lack of responsibility was not worshipped enough. I look at my pet and envy its day. I look at young children and think to myself ‘I would be quite happy toddling around with an ice-cream now.’ Commitment comes with a sense of obligation, the sense of impending doom and, to my mind, the term FOREVER is not a welcome one. It implies a lack of change, stagnation. I most definitely perceive commitment as definition number 2.